NOTHING MORE TO SAY
All the leaves are gone I don’t give a fuck
Let the winter come on I think I’ll try my luck
Always knew it could be bad though I must admit
If I thought it’d be this bad I woulda split
I am exhausted, you’re black and blue
Don’t say your cheating heart’s attacking you too?
I hear voice name across the wire…liar
Don’t call me up when you figure it out
I’ve got nothing more to say to you
You had your chance when the truth came out
I’ve got nothing more to say to you
There’s a beginning and an end to every story and song
Every lover and friend whose heart could never belong
Every track on the rail every line on the road
Every country so rich you know it’s gotta explode
Don’t call me up when you figure it out
I’ve got nothing more to say to you
You had your chance when the truth came out
I’ve got nothing more to say to you
What do you say when the good’s all gone
There’s nothing more to say to you
What we had was right, what’s left is wrong
I’ve got nothing more to say to you
Yeah, we began and then we ended
There’s nothing left here to be amended
Check your mailbox, return to sender
Pretender
Don’t call me up when you figure it out
I’ve got nothing more to say to you
You had your chance when the truth came out
I’ve got nothing more to say to you
What do you say when the good’s all gone
There’s nothing more to say to you
What we had was right, what’s left is wrong
I’ve got nothing more to say to you
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Trust Youself
someday soon and I don't know when
your little world will come crashing in
don't think twice I'll be around
turn your back someone's gonna let you down
you know that it's true
nobody led you on they left that to you now
you'll be alone when the sun comes up
with your tattered little dreams and a broken cup
then you'll have to trust yourself and don't believe in anymore lies
you waste your time think too much
really make a mess of the things you touch
poor little bird with a broken wing better look around
now you know your losing everything
it's just a game
thought you had it all lined up but somehow that's changed
now you'll have to run and not get caught
and you'll have to hide if you like it or not
then you'll have to trust yourself and don't believe in anymore lies
someday soon and it won't be long
you'll ring the bell but they'll all be gone
they took your jewels and your statues too
left you with a pile of things you never learned how to use
well here it comes again
you showed us where it all began well here's where it ends
and you'll be alone when the sun comes up
tattered little dreams and a broken cup
then you'll have to trust yourself and don't believe in anymore
trust yourself and don't believe in anymore
trust yourself and don't believe in anymore lies
yeah yeah yeah
Blue Rodeo
your little world will come crashing in
don't think twice I'll be around
turn your back someone's gonna let you down
you know that it's true
nobody led you on they left that to you now
you'll be alone when the sun comes up
with your tattered little dreams and a broken cup
then you'll have to trust yourself and don't believe in anymore lies
you waste your time think too much
really make a mess of the things you touch
poor little bird with a broken wing better look around
now you know your losing everything
it's just a game
thought you had it all lined up but somehow that's changed
now you'll have to run and not get caught
and you'll have to hide if you like it or not
then you'll have to trust yourself and don't believe in anymore lies
someday soon and it won't be long
you'll ring the bell but they'll all be gone
they took your jewels and your statues too
left you with a pile of things you never learned how to use
well here it comes again
you showed us where it all began well here's where it ends
and you'll be alone when the sun comes up
tattered little dreams and a broken cup
then you'll have to trust yourself and don't believe in anymore
trust yourself and don't believe in anymore
trust yourself and don't believe in anymore lies
yeah yeah yeah
Blue Rodeo
Monday, August 4, 2008
Vacation week
OK, well, it's vacation week for me, anyway. The hubs is still working. This is his busy time of year, so him getting time off is really slim.
I don't have any huge plans because it is just me and the kids. I have some odds and ends to do around the house, but no big project I can tackle on my own with 2 kids around to interfere. I think I am going to take the time to do some visitation. My friend has just had a brand new baby (congrats, Nancy and Jason!) and I'd like to see if my best friend has can slow down for a few hours so we can pop in to see her and her girls. We may pop down to my Dad's. I'd prefer to do that on a nice day so we can hit Queensland beach first.
The other thing on my agenda is getting the "back to school shopping" done. Yes, maybe it is a tad early, but I just want it done and out of the way. I also want to go through all the kids clothes and find out what still fits and what doesn't. I have a funny feeling I'll be sadly short on pants for the kids once I'm done. *sigh* Buying pants for them is never easy, beanpoles that they are. By the time something fits them in the leg, it's miles too big around the waist. We may be travelling to Old Navy to see what we can find.
My relaxation this week comes tomorrow. One of the women I work with has recently put in a hot tub and all the women in my department are going up tomorrow afternoon. Food, drink, and a massage therapist is coming by to give us all massages. aaaaaah. Does it get any better than that? I've already told Mike he'll be picking me up on my way home because I have a sneaky suspicion I won't be fit to drive. ;)
I don't have any huge plans because it is just me and the kids. I have some odds and ends to do around the house, but no big project I can tackle on my own with 2 kids around to interfere. I think I am going to take the time to do some visitation. My friend has just had a brand new baby (congrats, Nancy and Jason!) and I'd like to see if my best friend has can slow down for a few hours so we can pop in to see her and her girls. We may pop down to my Dad's. I'd prefer to do that on a nice day so we can hit Queensland beach first.
The other thing on my agenda is getting the "back to school shopping" done. Yes, maybe it is a tad early, but I just want it done and out of the way. I also want to go through all the kids clothes and find out what still fits and what doesn't. I have a funny feeling I'll be sadly short on pants for the kids once I'm done. *sigh* Buying pants for them is never easy, beanpoles that they are. By the time something fits them in the leg, it's miles too big around the waist. We may be travelling to Old Navy to see what we can find.
My relaxation this week comes tomorrow. One of the women I work with has recently put in a hot tub and all the women in my department are going up tomorrow afternoon. Food, drink, and a massage therapist is coming by to give us all massages. aaaaaah. Does it get any better than that? I've already told Mike he'll be picking me up on my way home because I have a sneaky suspicion I won't be fit to drive. ;)
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Bit and bites
So, I feel like I'm starting to get a handle on life again.
I've been accepted at Dal for the anaesthesia assistant program. Now that I'm in, I just want to fire through it and do it all at once. Too bad I can't take a LOA from work and do that, but unfortunately the bills do need to be paid. The nurses in ICU keep asking me why anaesthesia isn't paying to put me through. I dunno. You'd have to ask them that question. I still hold out some small hope, but I'm going to be registering for my class soon, so there has to be a firm resolution one way or the other soon. I'm really keen to do this. I hope that I'm surprised soon with a change of heart.
We had our summer vacation away last week. We rented a house outside of Shediac for a week with Sean, Anita and Liam. It was very relaxing to just be away. The weather sucked at the first of the week, but we kept the kids busy and they had a blast. Jessi did awesome. No meltdowns. It was hard coming home. I'm back at work this week. I'm not too bad about it because I'm back on vacation next week. No big plans for it, other than picking away at the house and chilling out with the kids.
Speaking of the house, we're getting the old siding ripped off and adding another layer of insulation and new siding. It will hopefully make a difference to heating the house this winter. It will certainly make a difference to how the house looks. The old siding is definitely on its last legs. I don't think painting it would even make a difference. We're getting an eco assessment done first. Once that's done then we qualify for a rebate if it meets standards (which it will) for increasing our insulation value. We have 18 months after the first assessment to make as many improvements as we want, then they come back and check the work has been done. Once it meets their requirements the send in for a rebate to both the federal and provincial governments. The plan is as well as the walls to add insulation to the attic, add insulation and barrier to the basement headers, and replace the exterior doors. In all, we may get as much as 3k back. Makes it worth the $150 assessment. Sure we wait to get the money back, but then we can turn around and reinvest it in the house. God knows there's plenty of places we can put the money.
I'm finally finding my age is catching up with my body. I'm 118 lbs. I haven't been that weight since just after I had Jessi. It's all being put on around my middle. Not pretty. Now that my knee is pretty much back to baseline, though, I'm going to get back to working out. All I have to do is look in the mirror for my motivation. Not that I didn't want to put on weight, but it's all in one spot and I didn't want to go over 115.
Last time I was in Wal Mart I saw they had all the back to school supplies out. I have to go through Kyle's stuff to see what he has and make a list of needs. Last year I spent over $100 on school supplies and he didn't use a lot of it. I won't be doing that again this year. I also have to outfit Jess this year. She's excited about going, but I don't think she realises yet it's a permanent change in her life. After the first week, life should get interesting...
I've been accepted at Dal for the anaesthesia assistant program. Now that I'm in, I just want to fire through it and do it all at once. Too bad I can't take a LOA from work and do that, but unfortunately the bills do need to be paid. The nurses in ICU keep asking me why anaesthesia isn't paying to put me through. I dunno. You'd have to ask them that question. I still hold out some small hope, but I'm going to be registering for my class soon, so there has to be a firm resolution one way or the other soon. I'm really keen to do this. I hope that I'm surprised soon with a change of heart.
We had our summer vacation away last week. We rented a house outside of Shediac for a week with Sean, Anita and Liam. It was very relaxing to just be away. The weather sucked at the first of the week, but we kept the kids busy and they had a blast. Jessi did awesome. No meltdowns. It was hard coming home. I'm back at work this week. I'm not too bad about it because I'm back on vacation next week. No big plans for it, other than picking away at the house and chilling out with the kids.
Speaking of the house, we're getting the old siding ripped off and adding another layer of insulation and new siding. It will hopefully make a difference to heating the house this winter. It will certainly make a difference to how the house looks. The old siding is definitely on its last legs. I don't think painting it would even make a difference. We're getting an eco assessment done first. Once that's done then we qualify for a rebate if it meets standards (which it will) for increasing our insulation value. We have 18 months after the first assessment to make as many improvements as we want, then they come back and check the work has been done. Once it meets their requirements the send in for a rebate to both the federal and provincial governments. The plan is as well as the walls to add insulation to the attic, add insulation and barrier to the basement headers, and replace the exterior doors. In all, we may get as much as 3k back. Makes it worth the $150 assessment. Sure we wait to get the money back, but then we can turn around and reinvest it in the house. God knows there's plenty of places we can put the money.
I'm finally finding my age is catching up with my body. I'm 118 lbs. I haven't been that weight since just after I had Jessi. It's all being put on around my middle. Not pretty. Now that my knee is pretty much back to baseline, though, I'm going to get back to working out. All I have to do is look in the mirror for my motivation. Not that I didn't want to put on weight, but it's all in one spot and I didn't want to go over 115.
Last time I was in Wal Mart I saw they had all the back to school supplies out. I have to go through Kyle's stuff to see what he has and make a list of needs. Last year I spent over $100 on school supplies and he didn't use a lot of it. I won't be doing that again this year. I also have to outfit Jess this year. She's excited about going, but I don't think she realises yet it's a permanent change in her life. After the first week, life should get interesting...
Monday, June 9, 2008
I'm in a not happy with myself funk
I don't like going to work right now.
I don't like coming home.
My kids are driving me crazy.
I hate looking at myself in the mirror because all I can see is wrinkles, stretch mark, and the fat roll around my waste.
My house is in a perpetual state of needing to be cleaned.
My husband and I can't communicate no matter how much we say we are trying.
I am working on changing my career but am afraid I am getting in over my head.
I have a list of calls to make but can't even motivate myself to make them even though I know I will feel better afterwards.
My friends are either too busy or too far away, or moving away.
I am always tired and feel like I could sleep for days.
So, the next time somebody says "How are you?" and I say, "Fine," this is really what I mean. :(
I don't like coming home.
My kids are driving me crazy.
I hate looking at myself in the mirror because all I can see is wrinkles, stretch mark, and the fat roll around my waste.
My house is in a perpetual state of needing to be cleaned.
My husband and I can't communicate no matter how much we say we are trying.
I am working on changing my career but am afraid I am getting in over my head.
I have a list of calls to make but can't even motivate myself to make them even though I know I will feel better afterwards.
My friends are either too busy or too far away, or moving away.
I am always tired and feel like I could sleep for days.
So, the next time somebody says "How are you?" and I say, "Fine," this is really what I mean. :(
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Sorry, but...
I have things to write, but I'm not feeling like I have much I want to share with everybody. Remember my first entry when I said I have trouble blogging because most people only get the things I want them to know? We're at that point. Lots of stuff going on, not a lot of stuff I want everyone I know to know about.
So, I'm left with nothing. *sigh*
So, I'm left with nothing. *sigh*
Friday, April 11, 2008
Crud
That's what I've been wiping off my eyes the last couple days. I have the luck of getting pink eye. Correction: pinks eye"s": more correctly, conjunctivitis. I'm so thrilled, I can tell you. I got drops from the doc yesterday and kept them going every 2 hours yesterday, but I still feel much the same, and it still took me 20 minutes to see properly this morning. While it's mostly just a nuisance, it a problem in that I work in a hospital around very sick people and I have a highly contagious disease so going to work is kind of a no no, at least, until I stop having active goop coming out of my eyes.
But worst of all? My brand new tube on Lancome mascara that cost me $30 is now garbage. WHY could I not have gotten this when I was using the cheapo mascara?
But worst of all? My brand new tube on Lancome mascara that cost me $30 is now garbage. WHY could I not have gotten this when I was using the cheapo mascara?
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